If
I was a Woman...
Justin opened his eyes in the quarter-light
of the full moon that passed over his home and thought he saw a mouse. He quickly assumed that he was dreaming and
closed his eyes again and rolled over and put his arms around Christine.
As he eased back to sleep, he wondered why a
mouse would be sitting on his nightstand starring at him with those little
beady eyes, twitching its whiskers at him. It made no sense whatsoever, even in
a dream. He rolled over again just to be sure; there was no mouse. If he had just
turned back around quicker, he would have seen something that looked like a
mouse, but wasn't.
Barney often assumed the features of animals,
as he wandered the place where humans lived. Lately his favorite shape took the
form of mouse but he didn't quite have the image down pat. His ears looked more
as if they belonged on a small rabbit and his eyes, catlike and vertical showed
too much red.
Barney was sure he could refine his ears but
he knew that his eyes would remain demonic since after all, Barney was a demon
and demon eyes were always red and glowed brightly, especial in
pitch-blackness. Demon eyes didn't reflect light; they generated it.
Barney preferred being above ground in the
human world; he hated being in Hell but then, no one liked it down there, not
even the Big Boss. Not only was it way too
hot to suit Barney, most of the Boss' other demons were mean and nasty
creatures, that took pleasure in tormenting humans. Barney simply enjoyed having
a little fun with them occasionally.
Barney was convinced that his next target
Justin would offer him enough amusement to occupy him for a long time. He had
allowed Justin that flickering instant where he could see him as his initial
contact. Knowing that Justin would turn back to look a second time, Barney
scrambled to find a soft spot underneath Justin's pillow where he could be
heard and not seen.
As Justin slowly edged back into a deep
sleep, Barney followed along and it was easier to stay with the human now that
he was so near to Justin's mind. As usual, Justin's subconscious thoughts
emanated out and Barney's oversized ears twitched as he heard everything he was
thinking and dreaming. Justin was definitely a man whore.
*****
Justin Sawyer had married Christine three
years earlier after graduating from the same university. Although they had not
waited on their wedding night to experience each other's bodies, Christine had
come to Justin's bed a virgin that night six months before they exchanged vows.
She knew her future husband had been with other women but she was comfortable
in her beliefs that they would be faithful and monogamous from that first night
forward. Justin felt that way also.
However, Justin's imagination leaned easily towards
sexual fantasies and his most frequently occurring thoughts centered on the
differences between men and women. His
most recent and recurring fantasy began after watching a documentary on
television about human sexuality. The narrator and varied guest speakers on the
show discussed how human instincts controlled human mating practices.
According to the film, a female seeks out the
most powerful male available so that he can provide her with offspring that
would benefit from the father's genes. She would seek out the best hunter, or
the fittest male partner to sire her children, at least during the early days
of humankind. In a modern world, this often meant the most successful in terms
of earnings or achievements and power. Women were selective in their search,
turning away the men who they felt would produce children less able to cope and
therefore, less likely to survive and continue the species. It was all about
breeding, and is still a primary focus for less evolved species.
Men on the other hand are driven by primal instincts
in the modern era; their focus is to attempt procreation often, with as many
willing females as possible, in order to increase the chances of siring a
prodigy.
The documentary went as far as claiming that
modern traditional commitments within a relationship such as matrimony were
somewhat unnatural, especially for the male since it restricted him to only
having access to a single female. It even cited marriage as a female invention.
Other elements in the documentary commented
on additional aspects of human reproduction by making the point that most
species are driven in their desire to continue the species but humans
differentiated themselves by having sex for fun whereas lesser beast such as
dogs and cats only attempted to mate when the female was fertile.
Justin was not too sure of that part of the
show because more than once in his life, a male dog had attempted to mount his
leg and Justin was absolutely positive that his leg never came into season.
Male dogs enjoyed fucking; at least that was Justin's opinion.
Justin agreed completely about the
selectiveness of women and especially in the male's desire to stick it into
anything that happened along and that annoyed him. These were precisely the
thoughts Justin dwelt on that Barney's mischievous mind had tuned into.
Justin loved Christine, and despite his instinctually
driven desire to mount other females, he would never allow himself to go behind
her back and cheat or disappoint her, nor allow his actions to damage her trust
in him. Despite his willingness to follow traditional family values however, he
harbored resentment about how the male and female instincts had developed.
Justin felt it was unfair that a woman could
get herself laid so easily. All a woman had to do was make eye contact with a
man and lick her lips once. Even if Justin wanted to shake the bushes for an
alternate experience, the timing would never favor him. Women required a
courting ritual where her primitive instincts would evaluate a potential mate
and this would take time, money, and a lot of effort, something he could not
offer while in an existing relationship.
Justin often admitted to his drinking buddies
how lucky women were, that they could get fucked at the drop of a hat and he
heard the same sentiments expressed many times by other men.
"Yeah,
if I was a woman, I'd be the biggest slut in town. I'd fuck anyone, anywhere,
and look around to see who else I could fuck."
"You
got that right, and a woman can fuck as long as she wants to also, five guys,
ten guys, all she has to do is spread her legs."
Barney became excited by Justin's thoughts,
as in his dream, Justin often found himself entering a nightclub dressed in
fuck-me clothes, ready and able to fuck anyone anytime. It wasn't really the
sex itself that excited and intrigued Justin, as he switched gender roles in
his dream, it was the power of assurance that if he desired sex, it was always
available.
Throughout the remainder of the night, Barney
channeled his brain to run along with Justin's, steering his fascinations ever
closer to the surface. At first, he gave Justin only a slight nudge, by giving
him a dream where Justin was sitting alone at a bar when a woman sat next to
him and offered to buy him a drink as a way of reversing the traditional
male/female roles. However, unlike Justin's typical dream, Barney extended the scene
to the point where Justin experience flowed all the way into a bed. Justin
experienced multiple nocturnal emissions as his dream avatar continued to fuck
not just one woman, but also a dozen more. Each woman aggressively seeking what
Justin offered, and repeatedly, Justine gave the women what they craved.