Chapter 1
At that time I was living with my two
cousins, Monica and Ursula. They were a
bit older than me and tended to treat me in a somewhat domineering fashion as a
poor relation whom necessity had landed in their lives, for my parents had long
since suffered an early death in a road accident, leaving me not yet fully
fledged into the world.
The
cousins had taken me into the feminine atmosphere of their dominant
personalities and over the years I had become more and more subservient to
their will, giving in to them in everything.
During my early years they had engaged and put me under the tutelage of
a governess, a Miss Harriet Marwood. Whether by design or accident I never discovered,
but for my supervision the cousins had chosen a woman of a severe authoritarian
and dominant personality, who immediately set about subjecting me to a strict
and harsh discipline, under which all the feminine traits in my nature were
encouraged and nurtured, and displays of masculinity severely curbed and
restrained.
It was this woman who unwittingly developed
in me a liking for rubber and bondage, for her favourite punishment, to which
she frequently subjected me, was to bind me hand and foot, whereupon she would
cane me; this painful ordeal was not the end however, for leaving me trussed
up, she would go to her room and return with her waterproof cape over her
arm. I was then buttoned tightly into
it, the hood drawn over my head and the draw string pulled tight and tied under
my chin. She would leave me ties up and
enshrouded in this cape for an hour or so before she eventually released me
after I had apologised for my misdemeanour and promised not to do it again. It was during these solitary hours of
waterproofed helplessness that I came to actually enjoy such treatment, to find
it strangely and sensually exciting and with it I associated the rubbery smell
of the cape and the luxurious feel of its smooth rubberised lining all around
me, swishing and slithering as I struggled and strained against my bonds.
This straining and struggling heightened my
sensation of helplessness, which I came to enjoy more and more all the time
Harriet continued to punish me in this fashion, and with it I soon discovered a
voluptuous sensation invading my loins.
Harriet was not stupid and it did not take her long to notice my
pleasurable addiction to being tied up in her cape. Sadly Harriet found a more lucrative post and
left; as a parting gift she gave me her cape!
After Harriet's departure my love for rubber
and bondage became a secret passion and I began to amass rubber garments of
every description, from women's mackintoshes to rubber corsets and knickers and
with them leather straps with which I would bind myself as best I could in
imitation of Harriet's punishment, dressed in my feminine rubber gear and with
her cape around me. In spite of her
severity I missed her badly for years afterwards. My life became split in two with my secret
life in my bedroom becoming the dominant part, until the night when the cousins
invited their friend Hilda to dinner.
We were waiting for her in the lounge. She was late and Ursula started complaining
that the dinner would be spoiled, when the front door bell rang.
"That will be her now," she sighed
with relief. "James, let her in
will you." It was more of a command
than a request, but I had accepted long ago to be treated as inferior to them.
Opening the door I was confronted by a tall
Slavonic looking woman wearing a beautiful calf-length satin rubberised
mackintosh. She swept in past me, took
off the mackintosh which filled the hall with the loudness of its rustling
susurration and handed it to me before continuing towards the lounge. The removal of her mackintosh revealed her
clad in a tight fitting black satin dress, high collared long sleeved, and a
corseted waist relieved only by a wide white patent leather belt. As the high heels of her leather boots tapped
loudly on the parquet floor she left behind her the tang of an expensive
perfume, which mingled with the strong rubbery odour of the mackintosh in my
hands and suddenly awoke all my longing to be tied up. I buried my face in the smooth rubber while I
thought of Harriet, wishing she was still my governess.
"Hilda is a sex therapist," Ursula
told me as we were introduced.
Over coffee the conversation turned to
Hilda's profession, and it was not long before the subject of bondage was
reached. I listened fascinated as she
described some of her case histories. It
seemed to me that my two cousins were also showing an avid interest in the
subject, pressing Hilda to describe fully every bizarre detail. She had just finished telling us about a man
kept in bondage for a week by two women, when she turned to me with a curious
smile on her lips and startled me by saying;
"What would you say if Monica and Ursula
did that to you, James?" Before I
could answer, Ursula, to my utter dismay and confusion, blurted out excitedly:
"James has a passion for rubber!"
As I began to protest she stopped me.
"It's no good you denying it James, Monica and I know all about
your rubber clothes, sheets even, which you keep hidden in your room, and don't
think we haven't noticed the way you look at us when we wear our
mackintoshes."
Hilda was smiling and looking at me with
interest now. "Yes, I noticed that
too when he opened the door to me. So
James! your secret is out, although it seems it never was a secret," and
turning her attention to my cousins, who, so it seemed to me, now hung upon her
every word, she went on: "the interesting thing about rubber is that a
passion for it goes hand in hand with a strong desire to be in bondage, a
craving to be helpless in the hands of a woman, to be swathed in rubber and
forced to smell its peculiar odour, even to taste it with a rubber teat
strapped into the mouth. Indeed I have
known cases where a man of suitable temperament and nurture has been completely
transformed into a totally obedient slave by submitting him to the constant
wearing of rubber garments of all kinds, by constant restraint in every
conceivable manner, augmented by suitable punishments during his
training." Her final remarks were
addressed to me and said in such a manner as to send a shiver of fright up my
spine: "I even know a woman who has a clinic devoted exclusively to such
training, and very successful she is too."
"But how
absolutely fascinating!" Ursula's eyes were open wide with excitement.
"We could do with a slave around
here," Monica laughed. "How about it James?" I felt a sense of alarm, the atmosphere of
the room had changed and I became acutely conscious of the three women on one
side and myself on the other. Hilda was
looking at me intently. "I should
say you two have a very promising subject in James," she said, serious now
and no longer smiling.
"This has gone far enough," I said:
but I heard my voice quaver a little.
"Now don't pretend that the idea doesn't
excite you," she replied, and as she turned to my cousins I knew that she
had judged my essential nature precisely.
"I have a suggestion to make." She
paused for just a moment to give me a strange look and then continued: "We
will put James into rubber bondage for the rest of the evening, for I have seen
how each of you in your own way has been excited by our conversation, James
especially has been shivering with increasing desire ... No, do not attempt to
deny it James, I can read you like a book, and as for you two, I have known you
long enough to make a shrewd guess at your propensities, so James will spend
the sort of evening he has dreamt about, and afterwards you can decide whether
or not you want to train him properly.
If you do, I shall of course be happy to help and advise you."
The alacrity with which this alarming
proposal was accepted by my cousins frightened me and I made as if to get up
from my chair, but Hilda forestalled me and prevented me from rising by resting
her hands on my shoulders with surprising strength.
"Sit where you are James," she
said, "it will be better not to oppose us, for we can easily overpower
you. Monica, will you go and fetch some
of his things, I am sure you know where he hides them. Let me see, we shall need rubber knickers,
and some kind of rubber suit or coverall, and a rubber face mask if he has
one." Still holding me down into my
chair, she bent over and asked, "You do have a face mask James?"
"Yes I do," I replied, and my voice
sounded soft and weak.
"I'll fetch some straps," Ursula
offered, "but why don't we take him up to his room and tie him up there?"
"Yes of course." Hilda released the pressure on my
shoulders. "Get up James! Now are you going to be a good boy and not give
us any trouble or do we have to take you up forcibly ... we can you know."
I stood up; the three women gathered around me;
I felt menaced by their presence; I became scared all of a sudden and gathered
myself to break away out of the room.
Suddenly, from behind me, Hilda seized my arm, drew my wrist into the
small of my back, twisted it and savagely jerked my arm up between my shoulder
blades. A fierce spasm of pain shot into
my shoulder ...
"Stop! You're
hurting!" I cried.
"Yes I know, and I shall continue to
hurt you if I have to," Hilda's cold even voice warned me, "are you
coming quietly with us ... or - " She gave my arm another hitch up my
back ...
"Yes, yes!" I cried out with
pain. My arm was released at once. Monica led the way, and I was taken to my
bedroom, each wrist held securely under Hilda's and Ursula's arms.
Inside the bedroom Ursula locked the door and
took the key. Monica opened the cupboard
containing my rubber gear, and while we waited, Hilda made a thorough
inspection of it all. At length she
turned round,
"There seems to be enough here for you
to begin his training with very little addition, did you know that he even has
some rubber corsets in there?"
"Yes, we've known for ages," Monica
replied, "but we've never been able to decide what to do about it."
"Well we know now."