Her words poured into me like a
thick glucose drink. Just pouring into my psyche and then staying there.
Tumbling around. The words filled me with dread and yet at the same time the
words hinted that I was maybe in some way going to be re-united with Maisie and not solely from the inside of a barred cage. At
the thought of that I back-scraped my hoof on the floor, a sign of joy, of
pleasure, and the two sadists smiled. They liked that. I thought, even though I
knew what I was doing, that it was wrong. I was being animalised, dehumanised
by these women and they were enjoying that aspect as much as the infliction of
the terrible, terrible pain they were able, with ease to pile on me. Maisie was walking
on the spot. Her eyes had flicked to me as I had been taken out of the
cage. I felt a shiver first and then the
contact with Maisie's eyes. That had sent a shiver
down the core of my spine, but also a shiver as I was taken from the closer
security of the cage into the bigger building proper. That shiver of being
taken out like a sign that I was becoming institutionalised in that place. Like
being in the cage was the safest thing for me. Secure, warm and womblike. I
remembered being caged for the first time. The
absolute horror, the degradation of it. Being 'caged' like some animal by
another woman. With yet another woman looking on. The awful debilitating
degradation of feeling those eyes watching me and enjoying my downfall. But that was back then. That was not long
after I had come to Hope Farm. That was way back when all of this other world
stuff was new to me. That pure
demoralising act of being caged. Being led into a cage by another human being.
Creating an immediate level on which I existed.
But now being taken out of that cage and into the larger room proper. I
wanted to scoot back in. To cower in the corner but I couldn't do that. I was
being guided by Julia's hand. I couldn't go against that guiding, I would
suffer in ways I would rather not think about if I did that. Maisie's eyes, I could feel them. Following me. Her not
faltering from the high steps she was taking. I caught a whiff of something,
like a pureness as she seemed to absorb her own horror with ease. My eyes
roamed through their little slits, over Maisie. The
pain was crucifying me, but also that little clench of the thighs. Just a
little clench trying to give myself some pleasure as my nostrils twitched.
Being so close to her I could smell her. I could smell my little sister. It was
almost like I was smelling her intimacy as it was dripping from her sexuality.
And there it was dripping from her sex. Dripping from between her legs.
Dripping, and then dripping some more. My nostrils twitching with that then
twitching some more. My face creasing up in another mask of pure pain as the
cramps hit again. I had to stop, double up from the cramps. Somehow it didn't
matter that doubling up meant that the weight of my breasts increased yet again
thus magnifying that pain. The cramp pains at that precise time were worse. I
had to swallow one lot of pain to both breasts in order to at least try to ease
the cramp pains. The ying and the yang effect. I could feel the pressure inside me. The
pressure that the oily stuff and the plugs fitted to my tubes created. It
caused pressure on all of my internals. I could feel the pressure on my cervix
and colon and then at all of the intimate feminine stops in between. The little
membrane of flesh that existed between my anal tunnel and vaginal one was just
that, a membrane. Almost completely translucent such was the amount of
stretching that I had been subjected to. It felt like the tubes, the anal tube
and the vaginal one were rubbing up together deep inside of me. It felt like
they were one inside me. But I knew there was just that membrane of flesh
there, separating them. And I knew that that piece of flesh, that almost
insignificant piece of flesh had been worked on and adapted and modified as
well. There was a wet groan that came from my inner being as I got used to my
height and gait again.
"Mmmmmmm nnnngggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhggghhhhhhhh."
At first the 'agony' as I was able
to stretch my spine for the first time in what seemed an age, almost paralysed
me. The hoof-boots though, forcing the other stance. The animal like one.
Making my steps exaggerated, slightly swinging steps. I should have been relieved a bit but wasn't.
What little relief there was was counteracted by the
ever increasing pressure inside of me. And it was ever increasing. My body
fighting and complaining to expel the alien substance that was causing it
havoc. I stood up and felt my back form
the natural concave arch with my latexed ass jutting
out backwards. I knew what I must look like and I knew the eyes were on me I
could feel them. Oh god I could feel both sets of eyes, the Bitch's and Julia's
eyes just watching me. My legs splayed, hoofs a little way apart on the floor.
Because of my stretched and modified intimacies my gait radically altered. My
legs apparently set wider on my hips. Thighs parted though not bowed and where
thighs met groin a weird reconstructive set up which saw my ass and my cunt,
gaping black, stretched holes within full view. Especially so from the rear
view. I took adjustment steps and at the same time turned a slow circle.
Something inside me, inside my head told me that I should offer my captors the
best and the most explicit view of myself. I don't know what made me think like
that. Maybe it was another sign of the institutionalisation that I was feeling.
Maybe just it was my mind and body accepting that I was now existing for the
'pleasure' of others. That in fact I was an owned 'creature' with no rights. Or
no control over any aspect of my life.
That can have been the only explanation why I turned, almost on the
spot, to 'show myself' to these two women. I didn't look at them, I didn't feel
that I had the right to do that. Its true that is what I felt; that I didn't have the right
to raise my eyes and look even in the direction of the two women, let alone
into their eyes. Even the thought of the slightest eye contact with either was
enough to almost send me over the edge.
I couldn't even bring myself to look at Maisie.
Somewhere in my diminishing mind I had thought that if I look at her, if our
eyes met, that she would then KNOW that I had all but given up. I just felt
that if that happened, if there was the slightest hope left in her that we
would escape this place, then she would KNOW that I had given up and that I had
let her down. Those thoughts I fought with. I fought with every ounce of my being.
But I knew that I had given up. Or at the very least that the last little tiny
bits of my will were simply draining away. Or dissolving inside that alien
liquid that was torturing my femininity and turning my mind to mush.