Hearing his cries, encouraged by his tone - the
captain struck harder and harder. He threw down the crop and changed to the
lash which he yielded with savage force. Sweat pored
from his massive body through the exertion of the attack. The captain did not
relent. He continued to deliver blow after blow; the whip swooshing
through the air to land on every part of Sébastien's front
torso, welting the skin in a crazy pattern of red.
The blows rained down on him time and time again
until Sébastien was hanging limply from the chain, his
head exploding with the pain, yet his heart still rejoicing in the suffering -
for the suffering subdued his crushing guilt which was far more torturous and
unbearable.
Then the whipping halted.
The pain lingered in Sébastien's
body. The guilt was there as well, but its hideous nature had miraculously been
tamed by the weapons the captain had so firmly yielded. It had been broken like
a horse, still physically the same but the nature changed. And for the first
time in two years, Sébastien Gervais
was at peace. He had found a treatment to gain remission from the cancer that
had been eating away at his soul.
Pain was the answer - pain and submission. His total
surrender, physically and mentally, would allow him to breathe again. In the bubble
he had entered, removed from the world, euphorically riding the soaring eagle
of bodily suffering, Sébastien realised what he now must
do.
The captain looked at Sébastien
hanging limply from his bondage. He placed his hand under the lad's chin and
raised his face. Tears were streaming down the young man's cheeks, his chocolate
eyes had melted to liquid, and his ruby lips were quivering through his suffering.
The captain waited on a word, a plea for him to stop. Those eyes were pleading,
the lips started to move - the word was coming and he wondered if he had the
strength to refuse what was asked.
The captain braced himself. He looked at the eyes,
so compelling with their warmth. He looked at the lips so inviting with their
sweetness. He felt his heart touched by the beauty that he saw. Could he refuse
those eyes? Could he deny a word pleaded from those lips? Could he deny this
boy his mercy?
The answer came surprisingly easy - for the word
was not what he'd expected.
"Merci!" Sébastien said.
It wasn't mercy that Sébastien
asked for. He thanked him instead. Thanked him for thrashing away his guilt. He
thanked him for his deliverance.