Chapter One

 

Linda heard the front door buzzer and she looked at her watch.

"Right on time," she murmured to herself as she went to answer the door. She liked punctual people.

When she opened the door she saw a tall, gorgeous looking, fair haired, angel face young man.

"Um, my name is Jack Axel," he said in a hesitant voice. "I've come about the room you are advertising,"

Linda just stared up at him, he was the most beautiful looking man she had seen in a long time.

"W-we talked on the phone, yesterday," he went on to explain nervously, when he didn't get a response from her.

"Sorry," she said and shook her head as if coming out of a trance, "please come in."

When she had heard him talk on the phone he hadn't made much of an impression on her but she now changed her opinion of him completely. Linda always wanted to meet her lodgers in person before she let them rent her room but one look at him made up her mind straight away. She very much wanted him as her lodger. Although, in the back of her mind she knew she shouldn't be judging a man by his looks, she ignored that thought completely.

"Would you like to look at the room" she asked enthusiastically as he stepped through the door.

He smiled shyly.

"Yes, all right," he said.

She led the way up her stairs and into a bedroom and he followed closely behind her.

"This used to be my son's room, before he left home." she explained as she walked into the bedroom, "I hope you like it."

He briefly glanced around the room.

"It looks fine to me," he said.

"Will you want breakfast and dinner?" she asked.

"Yeah, but I'm vegetarian," he explained, "I hope that isn't a problem."

"That's no problem," she replied, "I tried to get my late husband to eat more vegetables after his first heart attack but he liked his junk food too much."

"I'm sorry to hear that," he said sympathetically.

"Thank you," she said and sighed, "but that's in the past, life must go on."

"I don't mind fake meats," Jack explained, "I only came vegetarian when I saw a film about factory farming and how badly they treat animals."

Linda's heart warmed to the young man, not only was he extremely good looking, he seemed to be a caring person as well. She liked anyone who showed they cared about animals.

"That's no problem," she said, "I like cooking so I can make you whatever you like."

"My mum is the same," he said, "she likes cooking."

"Oh good, I do appreciate someone who likes home cooking," she said, "so when do you want to move in?"

"Well now, if you don't mind," he said, "I've got all my stuff in the car."

He was now starting to relax and his hesitant speech slowly faded. She generally demanded a month's rent in advance before she let a lodger in her house but this time she didn't even think about it. She helped him carry his gear up to his room from his car. As she did this, she took an interest in the weights he carried up the stairs. She admired his wide shoulders and slim hips and could see muscles under his shirt and wondered how large they were with his shirt off.

"Do you work out often," she asked as he put the weights down on the floor of his bedroom.

"Every day," was his only comment. He was obviously a man of few words.

They soon settled down to a life together. She soon discovered he was a science student at the local university. Linda was used to having student lodgers after her son and daughter left home but she was also use to her lodgers going out for the evening when they weren't studying. Jack was different he stayed in. So she encouraged him to sit with her in her sitting room when he wasn't studying, instead of staying alone in his room. Although this meant she ended up watching sports programs on TV, but she was happy to watch them, if it was with him.

At first she found it difficult to have a conversation with him, because of his shyness, but after awhile he began to relax and it became easier to talk to him. She then found him to be a thoughtful and intelligent young man but lacked social skills. Slowly they got used to each other and she found she could have long conversations with him. The more she got to know him the more she got to like him and found that not only was he good looking but she enjoyed his company as well.

For a long time she had wondered if he had a girlfriend as he never went out to socialize to meet girls of his own age. Then one evening the subject came up in their conversation when he talked about a some of the girls he was studying with. Linda wondered if one of them could be his girlfriend but didn't want to ask him directly. So instead she tried to lead the conversation in that direction.

"You must know you're an attractive looking young man," she commented, "I bet all the girls look at you."

"Do they?" he asked.

"Of course they do," she said.

"Yeah, I suppose they do," he said glumly.

She was puzzled by his negative response.

"Don't you like girls looking at you?" she asked.

"Well yeah, it's all right," he admitted.

"So what's the problem?" she inquired.

He was silent for a moment.

"The problem is that I'm shy with girls," he finally admitted, "I become tongue tied if an attractive girl talks to me."

"Oh I see," said Linda sympathetically and remembered how hesitant his speech was when she first met him and was aware of his lack of social skills.

Up until then she had a assumed a relationship with this attractive young man would be completely impossible. But what suddenly flashed into her mind, is that, if he couldn't talk to girls his own age, perhaps he might consider a relationship with an older woman? She immediately dismissed such an idea from her mind as totally insane, but somehow that thought kept returning to her.

Unwittingly, she began to fantasies what if would be like to have a relationship with him and no matter how many times she told herself that it would be impossible, the fantasies kept re-appearing. So she found herself dreaming about what it must be like to cuddle his naked body and feel his hard muscles. Then she would argue with herself, and tell herself she was being stupid for having such fantasies and desires.

She was over 40 years old and she knew he was only 18, so it would be crazy to think he would want a relationship with a women of her age, no matter how shy he was with girls his own age. After awhile she managed to convince herself that a relationship with him was totally impossible and she managed to push it to the back of her mind. Then something happened that sparked into life her desire for him once again.

One day she went into his room while he was at university. He kept his room reasonably clean but never dusted or vacuumed it and this is what she did to his room once a week. While she was cleaning she emptied a waste paper basket near the desk where he had his computer. In the waste basket were used tissues and she knew from experience of other male lodgers that there was dried up sperm within the tissues. As the waste paper basket was close to his computer she reasoned that obviously he had been masturbating himself while watching porn on his computer and caught his sperm in the tissues. The number of tissues in the bin show her he was probably doing this every day.

She sighed to herself as she thought about him pleasuring himself on his own. Surely it was a shame for him to have to do it by himself, when he could do it with her. Then she became curious of what porn he was watching and switched on his computer. This was something she was used to doing. She had always been suspicious of her late husband having affairs with other women and would go on his computer and look at his emails while he was at work. To find out if he was in contact with other women.

Linda did also get into the habit of using the computer's browser history button to find out what porn her husband watched and was disgusted by what she found. So again she went to the computer's browser history button to see what Jack had been watching. Jack hadn't bothered with any passwords to protect his privacy so she found this easy to do. So she soon found porn videos on the list of web-sites he had watched. She clicked on some of them and was shocked by what she saw, the videos were even worse than what her late husband watched. Her curiosity made her watch a few of the videos and she had learned previously to turn the sound off. This was because she hated men in these videos calling women names like dirty sluts and was irritated by the fake orgasms of porn actresses.

In her many conversations with Jack she had found him to be a caring young man who was concerned about wildlife, farm animals and poverty, but now she became aware of the dark-side of his personally. His caring nature wasn't reflected in the porn he was watching, as most of it was of men using and even abusing women. There were videos of men spanking women or slapping a woman's face before she gave him a blow job. Then there were others which she found were extremely perverted. She saw a video where a man was having anal sex with a woman, who then took his penis out of her ass and put it in her mouth. Linda thought this was a crazy thing to do and was even more shocked to find there were many more videos like this.

She went through his history of videos hoping to find porn that wasn't so abusive to women but she soon gave up and had to admit Jack was just another cruel and selfish male when it came to sex. She tried to tell herself that these were only fantasies and he surely wouldn't want to do these things in real life, to real women, but was unable to convince herself that this was true.

This put her off wanting to have a relationship with him for a few days but found it didn't stop her fantasies about him. Then to her horror, her fantasies became more intense as she found herself fantasying about him sexually abusing her, in the same way as the men did on the porn videos he watched. But then she comforted herself that a relationship with Jack was impossible, so why should she worry about it? She was far too old for him and why would she want to have a close relationship with a man who fantasied about selfishly using and abusing women?

She did her best to keep any idea of wanting a relationship with him out of her mind, and for a while she was successful in doing this. Then one morning as she woke up, something else come occurred to her. The women shown in the porn videos he was watching were not all young women. Some were of women the same age as herself and even older having sex with young men. She had forgotten about this as she reacted to the abusive and perverted sex in these videos.

She then began to question herself. Was really it true he was watching porn with older women in them? Or was it just wishful thinking on her part? Later on that day after he left for university, she went back into his room and looked up the history of the porn videos he watched, this time taking more notice of the age of the women in them. She soon found that there was a wide range of ages from late teens to old women. It became clear to her, that to Jack, the age of the woman didn't seem to matter. He was more interested in the perverted sex shown in the videos.

So did it mean that a sexual relationship with Jack was possible if she was willing to act out the type of sex shown in these video? There then became a tug of war between her logical mind telling her that a relationship with this young man would be a bad idea, pitted against her emotions and fantasies. She soon discovered her logic wasn't as strong enough to overcome her desire for him.

She went to her bedroom and took off all her clothes and looked at her naked body in a long mirror. At first she was critical of her body. She use to be proud of her breasts but they now sagged, while her hips and bottom had become larger over the years. Her late husband Sam had frequently commented about the size of her ass and made jokes about how huge it was, which made her self-conscious about her bottom.

As a young women she was used to young men gawking at her in the streets, which she enjoyed, but as she grew older that happened less and less. So now she found herself at the age of becoming the invisible woman, where men hardly notice women of her age. So it would surely be unrealistic that Jack would want to have a relationship with her. But then another thought came to her mind.

She began to compare her body to the porn actresses in the videos she just watched and realized her body wasn't so bad after all, as she still retained her hour-glass figure. She realized that many of the porn actresses had the bodies of normal women. They weren't the glamorous women in films and fashion magazines. And this didn't seem to be a barrier to men getting excited over seeing them having sex. That thought gave her a lot more confidence in herself. But then she remembered that Jack was only 18 years old and she was over 40, surely the age gap between them was too large?

Also, what would she do if he wanted to do the same thing as the men she saw in the video he watched? She wasn't sure, but she found her desire for him was too strong, and she pushed negative thoughts to the back of her mind, as she planned how to seduce him. It was clear by his behavior that she would have to take the initiative. At first she thought of complicated plans but rejected them as she knew from experience with men, the direct approach was the most effective. That evening as they sat together after dinner, Linda decided to put her plan into action.