Chapter One
Linda heard the
front door buzzer and she looked at her watch.
"Right on time,"
she murmured to herself as she went to answer the door. She liked punctual
people.
When she opened
the door she saw a tall, gorgeous looking, fair haired, angel face young man.
"Um, my name is
Jack Axel," he said in a hesitant voice. "I've come about the room you are
advertising,"
Linda just stared
up at him, he was the most beautiful looking man she had seen in a long time.
"W-we talked on
the phone, yesterday," he went on to explain nervously, when he didn't get a
response from her.
"Sorry," she said
and shook her head as if coming out of a trance, "please come in."
When she had heard
him talk on the phone he hadn't made much of an impression on her but she now
changed her opinion of him completely. Linda always wanted to meet her lodgers
in person before she let them rent her room but one look at him made up her
mind straight away. She very much wanted him as her lodger. Although, in the
back of her mind she knew she shouldn't be judging a man by his looks, she
ignored that thought completely.
"Would you like to
look at the room" she asked enthusiastically as he stepped through the door.
He smiled shyly.
"Yes, all right,"
he said.
She led the way up
her stairs and into a bedroom and he followed closely behind her.
"This used to be
my son's room, before he left home." she explained as she walked into the
bedroom, "I hope you like it."
He briefly glanced
around the room.
"It looks fine to
me," he said.
"Will you want
breakfast and dinner?" she asked.
"Yeah, but I'm
vegetarian," he explained, "I hope that isn't a problem."
"That's no
problem," she replied, "I tried to get my late husband to eat more vegetables
after his first heart attack but he liked his junk food too much."
"I'm sorry to hear
that," he said sympathetically.
"Thank you," she
said and sighed, "but that's in the past, life must go on."
"I don't mind fake
meats," Jack explained, "I only came vegetarian when I saw a film about factory
farming and how badly they treat animals."
Linda's heart
warmed to the young man, not only was he extremely good looking, he seemed to
be a caring person as well. She liked anyone who showed they cared about
animals.
"That's no
problem," she said, "I like cooking so I can make you whatever you like."
"My mum is the
same," he said, "she likes cooking."
"Oh good, I do
appreciate someone who likes home cooking," she said, "so when do you want to
move in?"
"Well now, if you don't mind," he said, "I've got all my stuff in
the car."
He was now
starting to relax and his hesitant speech slowly faded. She generally demanded
a month's rent in advance before she let a lodger in her house but this time
she didn't even think about it. She helped him carry his gear up to his room
from his car. As she did this, she took an interest in the weights he carried
up the stairs. She admired his wide shoulders and slim hips and could see
muscles under his shirt and wondered how large they were with his shirt off.
"Do you work out
often," she asked as he put the weights down on the floor of his bedroom.
"Every day," was
his only comment. He was obviously a man of few words.
They soon settled
down to a life together. She soon discovered he was a science student at the
local university. Linda was used to having student lodgers after her son and
daughter left home but she was also use to her lodgers going out for the
evening when they weren't studying. Jack was different he stayed in. So she
encouraged him to sit with her in her sitting room when he wasn't studying,
instead of staying alone in his room. Although this meant she ended up watching
sports programs on TV, but she was happy to watch them, if it was with him.
At first she found
it difficult to have a conversation with him, because of his shyness, but after
awhile he began to relax and it became easier to talk
to him. She then found him to be a thoughtful and intelligent young man but
lacked social skills. Slowly they got used to each other and she found she
could have long conversations with him. The more she got to know him the more
she got to like him and found that not only was he good looking but she enjoyed
his company as well.
For a long time
she had wondered if he had a girlfriend as he never went out to socialize to
meet girls of his own age. Then one evening the subject came up in their
conversation when he talked about a some of the girls he was studying with.
Linda wondered if one of them could be his girlfriend but didn't want to ask
him directly. So instead she tried to lead the conversation in that direction.
"You must know you're
an attractive looking young man," she commented, "I bet all the girls look at
you."
"Do they?" he
asked.
"Of course they
do," she said.
"Yeah, I suppose
they do," he said glumly.
She was puzzled by
his negative response.
"Don't you like
girls looking at you?" she asked.
"Well yeah, it's
all right," he admitted.
"So what's the
problem?" she inquired.
He was silent for
a moment.
"The problem is
that I'm shy with girls," he finally admitted, "I become tongue tied if an
attractive girl talks to me."
"Oh I see," said
Linda sympathetically and remembered how hesitant his speech was when she first
met him and was aware of his lack of social skills.
Up until then she
had a assumed a relationship with this attractive young man would be completely
impossible. But what suddenly flashed into her mind, is that, if he couldn't
talk to girls his own age, perhaps he might consider a relationship with an
older woman? She immediately dismissed such an idea from her mind as totally
insane, but somehow that thought kept returning to her.
Unwittingly, she
began to fantasies what if would be like to have a relationship with him and no
matter how many times she told herself that it would be impossible, the
fantasies kept re-appearing. So she found herself dreaming about what it must
be like to cuddle his naked body and feel his hard muscles. Then she would
argue with herself, and tell herself she was being stupid for having such
fantasies and desires.
She was over 40
years old and she knew he was only 18, so it would be crazy to think he would
want a relationship with a women of her age, no matter how shy he was with
girls his own age. After awhile she managed to
convince herself that a relationship with him was totally impossible and she
managed to push it to the back of her mind. Then something happened that
sparked into life her desire for him once again.
One day she went
into his room while he was at university. He kept his room reasonably clean but
never dusted or vacuumed it and this is what she did to his room once a week. While
she was cleaning she emptied a waste paper basket near the desk where he had
his computer. In the waste basket were used tissues and she knew from experience
of other male lodgers that there was dried up sperm within the tissues. As the
waste paper basket was close to his computer she reasoned that obviously he had
been masturbating himself while watching porn on his computer and caught his
sperm in the tissues. The number of tissues in the bin show her he was probably
doing this every day.
She sighed to
herself as she thought about him pleasuring himself on his own. Surely it was a
shame for him to have to do it by himself, when he
could do it with her. Then she became curious of what porn he was watching and
switched on his computer. This was something she was used to doing. She had
always been suspicious of her late husband having affairs with other women and
would go on his computer and look at his emails while he was at work. To find
out if he was in contact with other women.
Linda did also get
into the habit of using the computer's browser history button to find out what
porn her husband watched and was disgusted by what she found. So again she went
to the computer's browser history button to see what Jack had been watching.
Jack hadn't bothered with any passwords to protect his privacy so she found
this easy to do. So she soon found porn videos on the list of web-sites he had
watched. She clicked on some of them and was shocked by what she saw, the
videos were even worse than what her late husband watched. Her curiosity made
her watch a few of the videos and she had learned previously to turn the sound
off. This was because she hated men in these videos calling women names like
dirty sluts and was irritated by the fake orgasms of
porn actresses.
In her many
conversations with Jack she had found him to be a caring young man who was
concerned about wildlife, farm animals and poverty, but now she became aware of
the dark-side of his personally. His caring nature wasn't reflected in the porn
he was watching, as most of it was of men using and even abusing women. There
were videos of men spanking women or slapping a woman's face before she gave
him a blow job. Then there were others which she found
were extremely perverted. She saw a video where a man was having anal sex with
a woman, who then took his penis out of her ass and put it in her mouth. Linda
thought this was a crazy thing to do and was even more shocked to find there
were many more videos like this.
She went through
his history of videos hoping to find porn that wasn't so abusive to women but
she soon gave up and had to admit Jack was just another cruel and selfish male
when it came to sex. She tried to tell herself that these were only fantasies
and he surely wouldn't want to do these things in real life, to real women, but
was unable to convince herself that this was true.
This put her off
wanting to have a relationship with him for a few days but found it didn't stop
her fantasies about him. Then to her horror, her fantasies became more intense
as she found herself fantasying about him sexually abusing her, in the same way
as the men did on the porn videos he watched. But then she comforted herself that
a relationship with Jack was impossible, so why should she worry about it? She
was far too old for him and why would she want to have a close relationship
with a man who fantasied about selfishly using and abusing women?
She did her best
to keep any idea of wanting a relationship with him out of her mind, and for a
while she was successful in doing this. Then one morning as she woke up,
something else come occurred to her. The women shown in the porn videos he was
watching were not all young women. Some were of women the same age as herself
and even older having sex with young men. She had forgotten about this as she
reacted to the abusive and perverted sex in these videos.
She then began to
question herself. Was really it true he was watching porn with older women in
them? Or was it just wishful thinking on her part? Later on
that day after he left for university, she went back into his room and looked
up the history of the porn videos he watched, this time taking more notice of
the age of the women in them. She soon found that there was a wide range of
ages from late teens to old women. It became clear to her, that to Jack, the
age of the woman didn't seem to matter. He was more interested in the perverted
sex shown in the videos.
So did it mean
that a sexual relationship with Jack was possible if she was willing to act out
the type of sex shown in these video? There then became a tug of war between
her logical mind telling her that a relationship with this young man would be a
bad idea, pitted against her emotions and fantasies. She soon discovered her
logic wasn't as strong enough to overcome her desire for him.
She went to her
bedroom and took off all her clothes and looked at her naked body in a long
mirror. At first she was critical of her body. She use
to be proud of her breasts but they now sagged, while her hips and bottom had
become larger over the years. Her late husband Sam had frequently commented
about the size of her ass and made jokes about how huge it was, which made her
self-conscious about her bottom.
As a young women
she was used to young men gawking at her in the streets, which she enjoyed, but
as she grew older that happened less and less. So now she found herself at the
age of becoming the invisible woman, where men hardly notice women of her age.
So it would surely be unrealistic that Jack would want to have a relationship
with her. But then another thought came to her mind.
She began to
compare her body to the porn actresses in the videos she just watched and
realized her body wasn't so bad after all, as she still retained her hour-glass
figure. She realized that many of the porn actresses had the bodies of normal
women. They weren't the glamorous women in films and fashion magazines. And
this didn't seem to be a barrier to men getting excited over seeing them having
sex. That thought gave her a lot more confidence in herself. But then she
remembered that Jack was only 18 years old and she was over 40, surely the age
gap between them was too large?
Also, what would
she do if he wanted to do the same thing as the men she saw in the video he
watched? She wasn't sure, but she found her desire for him was too strong, and
she pushed negative thoughts to the back of her mind, as she planned how to
seduce him. It was clear by his behavior that she would have to take the
initiative. At first she thought of complicated plans but rejected them as she
knew from experience with men, the direct approach was the most effective. That
evening as they sat together after dinner, Linda decided to put her plan into
action.