Chapter
One
Caught In The Web: Part One
Sheila was fascinated, intrigued by the
powerfully erotic stories of the mystery woman known only as "Nadine." It took
all her courage to arrange, and then go through with the meeting with the
imperious webmistress. Was Sheila looking for love in all the wrong places?
Carefully
balancing the brimming cup of mocha, Sheila maneuvered her way through the
clutter of small round tables to find a place next to the windows. From her
vantage point, she could observe the blank facade of the non-descript apartment
building on the other side of 6th Avenue. The row of shops along the
street floor were starting to open for the new day. The sun was laying down a
precise band of morning light, illuminating the top three tiers of windows,
glinting off their shiny rectangles. The remaining rows were still in shadow,
their windows untouched, opaque, and anonymous.
Sheila studied the square matrix of windows,
knowing that somewhere up there was the woman: "Nadine." Was it her real name? Was
the woman, even now, standing behind one of those windows, inching back a drape
just a crack to look down on the awninged canopy over the front door, watching
for Sheila's arrival?
Sheila
was keyed up; had been all week. This morning she skipped breakfast; not
hungry, far too nervous to eat. A wave of fluttery anxiety had settled in her
stomach. It would take all her courage to go through with this, and she still
wasn't sure she could do it. She shifted in her seat, crossed and uncrossed her
slim, stockinged legs, tugged the narrow skirt down to the top of her knees. She
cupped the mocha in both hands, reassured by its warmth.
Of course, she was early. She knew that. Sheila
drew the cup closer; eased back a gabardine sleeve to check her watch. Looked
up once again at the even rows of windows. Twenty minutes early. She adjusted
the sleeve back into place, covering the oversized face of her watch. It wouldn't
do - for her to show up early. She knew instinctively that Nadine would expect
her to be on time; right on time. Not early; not late. Nadine had made clear to her that she had
her standards, her rules. She would expect compliance with those rules. A
quiver went through Sheila. She noticed her hands were shaking a little as she
lifted the cup, and took a sip of the bubbly milk.
Now, as she sat at the marble-topped table
staring up at the even rows of windows, she thought about her life, and the
hopelessness of it all. She didn't think Robin's going would affect her like
this. They both had agreed it was for the best. Their relationship had died
some time ago; the spark of life gone out of it. Still, she felt adrift without
Robin. And Robin's not being there, made the apartment seem so empty.
It was ok
at first, but gradually the loneliness had set in. And now she was so lonely...so
terribly, terribly lonely.
The days
weren't too bad. She could spend those buried in work, but the nights were
something else. Those were spent restlessly roaming the internet in her
darkened apartment, her intense blond features bathed in the light of her
computer screen. Like a hyperactive moth flitting among a thousand points of
light, searching, driven by her desperation and, to her surprise, an
unbelievable sense of randiness that seemed to seize
her each time she slid into the seductive promise of cyberspace.
It had been Nadine's stories that drew her
in, tales of love between women, if "love" was the right word for it. They told
of power, of sexual domination and sweet and total submission, of captive
lovers - obsessed and helpless, caught in a web.
That same wave of randiness
swept over her now at the thought of Nadine's website - sitting out there, like
a spider's web with its imperial webmistress, a self-contained, patient woman,
perfectly prepared to wait to see who might show up.
She let her mind drift to its image of
Nadine: an older woman, with a stern face; tightly-drawn lips set in grim
determination. Under the table, the blond girl's restless legs shifted
uneasily, closed; her thighs clenched, and she straightened up with a wiggle as
the knot of lust tightened in her belly.
Her
mental picture of the remote woman was always the same, but it was one
constructed entirely from the reflected glory of those wonderful, highly
arousing stories: Nadine's stories of lesbian infatuation that left her shaken,
breathless and sweating. Those stories, and the curt, tight-lipped e-mail
messages were all she had to go on. The woman gave her nothing more. What if
Nadine turned out to be some dumpy, saggy, middle-aged, frump? Or worse, what
if she were one of those muscle-bound, tattooed dykes, a body-pierced sadistic
menace with lip-rings and spiked hair. She shuddered. What had she gotten
herself into? A wave of desperation swept over her. This was dangerous! Sheila
shook off the scary thoughts.
No, the
stories were too elegantly drawn to have been written by a thug! Still, what
did she really know about Nadine? Next to nothing, while Nadine knew all about her;
demanded details; insisted she reveal herself, bit by bit. And later, when she
graduated into the chatroom and finally into their own private corner of the
chatroom, Nadine had asked for, pestered, insisted on - a photo. Sheila
dutifully scanned an old picture she had of herself, one of the few where Robin
wasn't in the picture, and she sent that one along. A tentative offering sent
with butterflies in her stomach.
The
picture was taken years ago, by her roommate in college. In those days, her
silvery blond hair was much longer, and she wore it tied back in a perky pony tail. She had on a pair of tight-fitting jeans; her
favorite blazer over a thin tank-top. Casual, yet kind of preppy, she thought. It
was taken from the balcony as she stood in the yard behind her dorm, and she
was squinting up at the camera from under her bangs with a tentative smile on
her lips. Sheila wasn't happy with the picture, but it was the best she had.
Now she
turned and caught a glimpse of her reflected face in the mirrored pillars of
the coffee shop. The face was older than the face in that picture, the eyes
sadder, the lines more pronounced. She seemed pale and drawn; wished she had
used a little more makeup today. What she saw was a gray-suited blond woman,
not exactly young but reasonably good looking, she thought, with soft brown
eyes, a delicate nose and chin, wide full mouth. Still attractive, but no
longer the college girl. Today, she wore her hair up, fine, sleek hair pulled
back from her face and gathered in a very short pony that looped softly above
the nape of her neck. Nadine told her to do that, to wear it pulled it back
like that - like it was in that picture, from so many years ago.
***
Although
there was a camera trained on the entrance to the apartment, Sheila wondered
about it. Was it was really working? She knew that sometimes dummy cameras were
installed in apartment buildings. They were cheaper. Still, if this one was
active, the observer would have seen, striding hurriedly up to the glass doors,
an attractive blond woman, who now stopped on the top step to study the double
panel of doorbells. The woman was in her thirties or maybe early forties;
sharply dressed in a mauve blouse under a trim gray suit well-tailored to her
slender figure. She might have been some businesswoman, a saleswoman perhaps,
scurrying off to some meeting with client. The woman was clearly nervous,
biting a curled lower lip, looking around with the furtive glances of a thief
about to case a job. She brushed back a sleeve to consult her watch one last
time. Then, with wiggle of her shoulders she came to attention, squared her
narrow shoulders, smoothened her bangs, took a deep breath, and quite
deliberately pressed the button beside number 820. She noticed that, unlike the
others, there was no name in the rectangular slot beside 820.
Sheila
was mildly disappointed that her ring did not immediately summon Nadine's
disembodied voice. Instead, there were a few seconds delay, long seconds while
she stood there all a-tingle, her palms sweating. She straightened upright,
tightened her grip on the purse she wore slung over her left shoulder; waited
tensely for some sort of response; her rising excitement a palpable thing. The
angry buzz, when it finally came, caused the girl to jump. She recovered
quickly, and made a grab for the handle of the big glass door just as the buzz
faded away.
It was a
short walk down the deserted lobby; high heels clicking, echoing on the hard
tiled floor. She paused as she stood facing the bank of elevators, as if once
more wavering, uncertain. This was it! She could still turn and run, beat a
hasty retreat out through those glass doors, fly down the concrete steps to the
street below, back to the safety and freedom of the real world. It was her last
chance.
With an
effort, she stifled the sudden wave of panic, and extended a slender, neatly
manicured finger to touch the small orange disk that was the elevator's call
button.
The
elevator was dreadfully slow, lurching from floor to floor with a muffled groan.
Sheila was grateful that she was, and remained, the sole occupant all the way
to the 8th floor.
She moved
slowly down the silent, carpeted hallway, as though she were some condemned
prisoner about to meet her fate. Summoning up all her courage, the slim,
well-dressed blonde continued along the rows of identical doors till she came
to number 820. There she took a breath and lightly tapped the little knocker on
the metal faceplate.
The door
opened. The woman who stood there was tall, taller than Sheila in her heels; a
lanky woman, in her fifties, and dressed all in black, her long lean figure
glamorous in the high-collared tunic and flared slacks of a silk shantung
pants-suit. A splay of coarse dark hair fell down past her angular shoulders,
frizzy, witchy hair - defiantly untamed. But the most remarkable feature of the
women who stood regarding her in the doorway was her eyes, large dark eyes with
drooping, cynical lids, heavily lined; eyes that remained absolutely
expressionless.
Taken
aback, Sheila stood transfixed under that unwavering gaze. A flush of
awkwardness swept over her, suddenly reducing her to a schoolgirl, squirming
under the accusatory eyes of an adult. The woman didn't move. Sheila tried a
smile, fumbling for words, looking down to avoid those terrible eyes.
"Hello, I'm...."
"Come in.
I know who you are."
Of course
she knew! Sheila flushed embarrassed with how ridiculous she immediately felt.
She was such a fool! The door opened wide; the woman in black stood back to
allow her guest to enter.
The
apartment Sheila stepped into was cool and spacious, done in white and muted
off-white, walls adorned with photographs in black and white, the furniture
starkly modern in black vinyl and gleaming chrome. The large windows on the far
side of the room must have overlooked 6th avenue; but now the creamy
drapes were drawn, cutting off the outside light. Instead, the room was lit by
strategically placed torchieres, augmented with indirect light flooding up from
behind a row of bookcases.
The rooms
were minimally, but tastefully decorated, with the occasional potted plant
lending a spray of green. The only other color in Nadine's monochromatic world
was a brilliant Persian rug overlaid on the pearl gray wall-to-wall carpet. The
thought went through Sheila's mind: A rug that size must cost a fortune!
Sheila
stopped after only a few steps into the room, hesitating while the taller woman
slid behind her. She heard the door lock with a definite click; the rattle of
the security chain being re-attached.
Sheila
was about to compliment her hostess on the elegant decor, when suddenly,
unexpectedly, Nadine stepped up close behind her, bringing their bodies into
light contact, causing her to gasp.
"Ummm...pretty," she heard the purr in her ear, sending a
shiver through her rigidly-held body. Sheila felt the older woman's touch on
her hair; fingers toyed with the flip of the abbreviated pony-tail, and Sheila
half turned in her growing unease. A wave of panic set in; she wanted to
escape!
"I..."
"Stay! Stand
still! Perfectly still," the voice of command was slow, unemotional, and
precise. And then, with lips just inches from her ear so she felt with hot
breath, the simple words: "I want to look at you."
Sheila
did as she was told. She let a wave of passivity settle in on her. She stood
inert, as if rooted to the floor. She might have been a mannequin; relieved of
her purse, docilely surrendering it, letting her arms hang limply at her sides.
Sheila was afraid to move. She maintained the pose as ordered, standing at
loose attention, her eyes fixed on the closed drapes at the far side of the
room, while Nadine stepped back to more fully appreciate her guest's slim,
gray-suited form.
Sheila
could feel the other woman's eyes scrutinizing her; knew she was being looked
at from behind, and while her body was paralyzed, her mind was racing full tilt.
How did she get herself into this?! It was all so silly! Yet it was real. The
stark, white room was real; the exciting woman in the shiny black suit was real.
A quiet thrill rippled through her.
She
jerked upright and stifled a whimper when a finger touched her from behind,
pressed lightly, under the collar of her suit, just at the base of her neck. She
felt that finger being slowly drawn the center of her back, following the
gentle curve of her spine, into the shallow dip of her lower back, then past
the bottom of the jacket to continue without pause, right down the back of her
narrow, silk-lined skirt. The exploring touch through her clothes became more
intimate as the finger traced the pert curve of the girl's skirted behind. She
was given a light pat on the bottom.
"Nice...oh
yes...very nice." It was a low, dreamy murmur.
The words
thrilled her. She didn't dare move.
Now
Nadine stepped around, slowly circling, to take in her guest from all angles,
ending up in front.
The
dark-haired woman stood perfectly composed with folded arms, facing the tense
blond girl, her expression - critical, that of someone considering a purchase,
that she might well reject. Sheila waited, hardly daring to breathe, till she
saw Nadine slowly nod, as if accepting the presented offering. But if the
imperious woman was pleased with what she saw, she showed no sign of it. No
glitter of appreciation brightened those hard obsidian eyes, no sign of
pleasure softened the lines of that set, business-like face: tight-lipped, with
pointed chin proudly raised. All of a sudden Sheila was struck by Nadine's
singular beauty: the face was plain, pale, and tightly drawn, the hair, thick
and frazzled, the eyes, devastating in their power, and then there was that
unassuming air of icy elegance - that took her breath away!
Sheila,
her head held high, gazed back at her new-found beauty of her observer,
fascinated, enthralled by that coldly remote stare. She didn't move a muscle,
but her big brown eyes widened in alarm when Nadine suddenly took a step
forward to bring herself up to within inches of Sheila's rigid body.
Looking
into Sheila's widening eyes, she lifted a hand and this time drew that single taloned finger down the side of face.
"Oh...yes,
you're a pretty one alright," Nadine mused. "Pet," she enunciated precisely, as
if trying out the words, gazing all the while into big brown eyes that were
tinged with apprehension. And Pet wants to play. Don't you Pet?"
"Uuuhh, Nadine," Sheila faltered, her eyes fluttered, she
bit her lower lip, then continued, "I think that I probably...."
"Sssh," the finger on Sheila's cheek slid over to press
lightly across her questioning lips.
"I don't
believe I gave you permission to call me that, now did I?" It was the voice of
sweet reason. "I think it's best if you address me as...'Madam'. Yes, I think
that would work quite well, don't you? You will call me 'Madam,' and I will
call you... 'Pet.' Now wouldn't that be nice?"
The
finger insinuated itself between Sheila's lips, probing gently against small
white teeth, and when it found resistance to entry, it contented itself with
exploring the inside of Sheila's lower lip, running over the gums, pressing back
the fleshy lip to fully expose the tightly clenched teeth through which Sheila
sucked in a shivering gasp of air.
"Open,"
Nadine coaxed in a honeyed tone, gently pressing on the set of clenched teeth.
"Oooo-pen," the order was repeated, harder this time,
drawn out, and laced with a threat, like a parent warning a child.
Sheila
let her jaw drop; the insistent finger slipped in over the ridge of teeth to
explore the inside of her mouth while she stood there, helpless, with arms at
her sides.
"Suck."
It was a heated whisper.
The
blonde hesitated. The narrowing of Nadine's eyes was enough to get Sheila to
promptly begin to suckle on the intruding digit. After few seconds, with the
two women looking into each other's eyes while Sheila dutifully sucked the finger
that was sawing in and out between her teeth, Nadine withdrew.
"I'll
expect you to obey more quickly the next time," she said dryly, turning away to
leave her distraught guest standing there with eyes closed, shoulders heaving
as she struggled to catch her breath, like someone who just had a very narrow
escape.